[ Kaspar can't see Steinbeck's expression at this angle, but he feels it again, in the silence after he speaks. Unintentionally pressing in those thorns, his hold tightens, as if he might hold the other man closely enough to rip them out with gentle force through his skin to Kaspar's. A fittingly bloody mess for two murderers.
With a sigh, his hold loosens again, relaxing into him. It's difficult not to be honest, with all he's been through since coming here. How much he's learned, about himself, the universe, and it's more than he'd ever hoped life would be for him. Change. Constant adventure, learning, and growing.
He has to consider it, filling the moments with one hand sliding to Steinbeck's hair to thread in it affectionately as he speaks. The uncertainty doesn't seem to faze him at all. ]
... Being here alone is, answer enough to all of my prayers. [ He means it, but draws breath like he is going to on only to pause again, before-- ] Having people to care about, was relegated to dreams.
[ And yet, he's never been so far away from crying. Eyes dry but suddenly more tired at their edges. ]
If I discover more of the answer, I suppose I'll only know it once I am there.
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With a sigh, his hold loosens again, relaxing into him. It's difficult not to be honest, with all he's been through since coming here. How much he's learned, about himself, the universe, and it's more than he'd ever hoped life would be for him. Change. Constant adventure, learning, and growing.
He has to consider it, filling the moments with one hand sliding to Steinbeck's hair to thread in it affectionately as he speaks. The uncertainty doesn't seem to faze him at all. ]
... Being here alone is, answer enough to all of my prayers. [ He means it, but draws breath like he is going to on only to pause again, before-- ] Having people to care about, was relegated to dreams.
[ And yet, he's never been so far away from crying. Eyes dry but suddenly more tired at their edges. ]
If I discover more of the answer, I suppose I'll only know it once I am there.